This Bike is A Pamphlet


“i, vega!, love writing. im just getting started on this journey but im trying to go in with honesty. its a beautiful thing to me. its my art. so i write for you and i write for free because it’s my passion. its the satisfaction of an urge of the living. to leave the world more beautiful for having youwaking up naturally, saying nothing, with a ballroom of cascading thoughts snaring my mind. what’s left of a dreamy sleep state where belief becomes true and magic still holds power. i turn away from the wall and brush the pillow next to me. i find myself adrift, careening down the rivers of consciousness. lost in a sea of coffee stained memories. i don’t preoccupy myself so much with the movement of days. i abstain from such unfathomable mysteries. instead i spend my time entranced with the sureness of my feet, the frailty of my time. this is my reality. this is existence.” – Vega (RIP)

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Grotesque & Tranquility: A Queer Nihilist’s Compilation of Poetry

From back cover:

“Vega is a southern born west coast anarcho-nihilist. Their identity is found in subtle notes throughout their prose. Being a constructed element of self, their identity has been constructed through a warped vision of what’s in front of you momentarily. Nothing written can capture that which is Vega, so nothing written will really do. If you knew them you would know. And that’s all there is. One might label them as disabled or a drug user. Another might label them as another construct to convey emotion. What resonates here is what matters. Leave the rest for someone else.”

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I Am Not Broken: Anarcho-Nihilist Disability & Survival Against Industrial Society

From back cover:

“My job couldn’t kill me, it could only tear me down to place me on a path of healing, a path to helping others through their struggles as I was able to work through mine. The pain is not an easy companion but it’s a constant reminder to look after myself and to look after others. This world is a dark, isolating place but I serve as a reminder that we can make it through our darkest times, that a flickering flame may well be the spark that lights industry aflame. We are not weak, only prisoner of the illusion of weakness. If we refuse to crumble under the immense pressures of this world we may cast light into the shadows, bearing witness to transformation and casting aside despair.”

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Against All Odds: Abolishing Gender, Abolishing Poetry

Text from the zine:

“Because of our misplaced desire to find ourselves within societies society, poets become absurdly competitive. Invoking abstract concepts of authenticity to either validate or invalidate writing. There is no valid or authentic poetics because the individual levies themselves against the poem every time a new poem is written or read. Everything is relational…stemming from the individual as the original point of relation. It is through individuality that poetry must be practiced, not through institution. But we also must recognize that our understanding of ourselves is produced within the context of a complicated network of power relations. To properly read we should reject self and poetry as simply “too relational.” My queerness does not make queer poems or queer readers. My identity does not create poems. I create poems. Quite plainly put, the attempt to compartmentalize the author into a palatable and packable product which the institutions of poetry can sell, does a disservice to the understanding of self and of poetry. Self in relation to poetry. Self about poetry.”

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